Saturday, November 8, 2008
another confusing day.....
cried... etc etc.
to derrick:
i just want you to know that i really love you.
really need you.
i know.. i know that you always have that kind of feeling.
feeling bad for me.... seriously i'm okay with it.
okay tht you dont have time all those.
as i said on the phone, i'll be okay.
i just want to know that you still love me, and you wont leave me just because you dont have time for me.it really makes me think that,no time, is just an excuse.
so dont ever feel bad abt it.
i'll be okay.
is not what you think the real thing.
i'm emo not because you dont have time for me,
i'm emo because i scared that you will leave me , cause you dont love me.
you just have to let me know what you're thinking, what you're doing....
let me know that you stil love me.
if really , that happen, i really cant tell you if i'll wait.
maybe, some other day, i'll be too use to it, used to not having you,and may just.... i'm scared really scared.
but i really really dont wish to . and i dont want to.
you said we can walk through it together again......
right? we will right?
i know i will.... i will be okay if you're really tht busy.
i will really really be okay.
i will be waiting for you if it really happen.
i will love you.....
just let me know...let me know what you're feeling.
let me know what you are thinking.
let me know if you love me.
let me know that its not what i'm thinking the real thing.
you just have to tell me. everything in your mind.
and dont just leave it to yourself.and i really dont want it to happen.just because you dont have time for me.tell me whenever you're feeling bad. and i really hope that it wont happen.
i will love you forever thats all i know. i dont wish to. i dont want to.and know that you love me....
Still waiting @
12:42 PM
